I Surrender, I give up, I let go - Daily Rant #38
There is time for planning, goals, desires and effort, and then there is a time to let go and just go with the flow.
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Rant#38 - Sometimes, you just have to surrender to the flow of life
Physical pain and signs from everywhere have reminded me that it’s time again to surrender and stop trying to plan, desire, and control my life. This lesson is ever-repeating in my life. I always fight it until I can’t fight it anymore. I persist in wanting to have things my way until the very moment I just can’t take it anymore.
Despite knowing that the only way anything ever happens in my life is with my complete and utter surrender, I keep trying to direct and control everything. It never helped, yet it’s somehow engraved within me—this need to control life and make things happen myself. I got the message, Universe. I’m done. I give up. I surrender. Do with me as you will.
In all those things, where I continually fail and make no progress, I now give up. I’m done. I can’t make it happen myself. I surrender. Life, universe, force, or god (your choice), do with me as you please. Your will be done, not mine. I am yours. Spin me as you please. Lead, and I will follow.
I’m done trying to direct my life. I’m done trying to control everything. I’m done trying to achieve my dreams. I’m done with desires. I’m done with plans. I’m done with resisting what is. I’m done wanting change. I’m done wanting control.
I’m done with forcing my will upon my life and the universe at large. It has never been neither good, nor wise, nor effective. Insisting on trying to deliberately control the uncontrollable is the definition of insanity. I’m done. Enough!
Whatever will be, will be, and I’m fine with it. I trust that whatever will happen needs to happen and cannot happen any other way, so I let it happen. All that will happen has already been determined, and there is nothing anyone, including me, can do to change that now. What is coming is coming. So be it. I allow whatever will happen to happen.
Universe, thank you for your guidance and for making everything perfect. If there is anything for me to do, give me a sign and make sure I don’t miss it. I’m here to serve. I have no preference. I give up on wanting to determine what happens, what comes, and what leaves. What do I know? Nothing!
I am open to new things, changes, or permanence. I have no preference. I have no desires. I have no needs. I am perfectly at peace, tranquil, and receptive. I am open to whatever comes and vow not to judge it but remain open and follow wherever my intuition and life itself will guide me.
If my fate or lesson is to remain in this position, so be it. If this game of life is to be played on this level, so be it. If I’m not meant to have it any easier, so be it. If this is the cross I must bear in this life, I shall bear it with dignity and humility. It is what it is. I am fine with it. I accept my life in totality as it is, the good and the less good.
I realize I am lucky despite lacking in certain areas. I have much to be grateful for, and this is where I choose to focus my attention. The things that I lack, while unpleasant, are nothing compared to what I have in abundance. The things that really matter and without which, I would be absolutely miserable right now. Billions aren’t as lucky. I realize that I am fortunate to be in my skin right now. I accept this fate as it is and do not fight it. It is enough. I am enough.
I am where I am, and I will do my best to appreciate it all, make the most of it all the time, remain present in the moment, and refrain from wanting more. I desire nothing. I have it all. Desire is lack. Desire is suffering. Effort is counterproductive. Force moves me backward, not forward. It is a strange law, but I know it’s true in certain things. The more I want something, the more life fights me on it. The less I care, the more I am given everything.
I am done thinking about a way out. I am done planning. I am done controlling. I am done wishing. I am done dreaming. I am done fighting. I am done resisting. I am done wanting. I am done determining. I am done going against the flow of life. I give myself to life and let it take me wherever it wants to take me. I go willingly and with an open mind.
I choose to believe that all that is currently happening is good and beneficial in some way, even if I don’t understand it, and that it leads to a better tomorrow. I choose to trust life and that the flow always leads in the right direction. I choose to surrender not as a sign of weakness but of strength and trust. Only the strong can release their grip on life and let it go completely.
It takes enormous strength and conviction to believe with all your heart that everything will be okay somehow, even if you don’t know how and don’t lift a fighter to make it so. Everyone pushes us for more action, but in surrender, sitting in place while the chaos of the world ravages around you, is what is called for, only acting once you get the nudge, the instinct, the door is opened and the invitation extended.
Surrender opens doors. Surrender offers relief. Surrender gives me calm and ultimate peace. Surrender affirms my belief that all is well and will be well, even and especially if I don’t interfere with life. Surrender is power. Surrender is tranquility. Surrender is clarity. Surrender is silence. Surrender is acceptance.
When I let go, things always work themselves out. When I can’t make something happen, despite doing my best, I need to admit defeat and just let go. Something is amiss, and I just don’t understand it. Something within me is resisting this change. Something in my mind is blocking my progress. By letting go and surrendering to the flow of life, I remove those blocks and allow life to flow freely through and around me. I start working with the universe, not against it.
When I no longer determine how I want my life to be, life takes over. When I am stuck on a problem and see no way out, and then give up completely, an infinite flow of wisdom and power becomes available to me. When I stop thinking and using my mind, silencing it in the present moment, I receive new ideas and solutions. Life always finds a way, and it’s best that I step out of its path.
All is well in my life. Whatever will be will be. Everything in my life is already determined, perfect, and wonderfully complete. It is all done. Done in the perfect way, for the highest good of all. I have all I need and want. I am exactly where I need to be when I need to be there. I am exactly who I need to be at this point in time. I always know exactly what to do.
I am love. I am bliss. I am tranquility. I am peace. I am ease. I am flow. I am one with all. I am free. I am silence. I am wisdom. I am strength. I am power. I am light. I am perfection. I am life. I just am. So be it. It is done.
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