I Have Imagined a New Life, Now Comes the Test of My Resolve - Daily Rant #18
This is my random rant, a reminder for myself of the nature of reality, where I explore challenging ideas and mold my mind. It's gonna get weird.
WHAT AM I LOOKING AT?
Dear reader, this is my daily rant, meant for myself and not for you. It’s random, unfiltered and messy. My reality is not your reality. I write these thoughts with the intention to process ideas better myself and mold my mind to my liking, and, with it my world. I share them with you in the hope they may be useful to you in some way. If you’re here, there’s a reason for it.
My perspective will be different than yours, and that is okay. If you find some ideas interesting and useful, play with them. Build upon them. Ignore and leave out the rest. I would encourage you to make a daily habit of writing such rants - in accordance with your perspective, ideas, beliefs, desires, and personality. They have helped me beyond words to find inner peace, connect with the all, improve my relationships, remove mental blocks, heal, and alter my reality in more ways than you could possibly imagine.
Good luck, though you don’t need it. You are one with infinite wisdom and power and the sole sculptor of your reality.
My resolve was tested, but I see through the illusion!
Today is a good day!
Today I am the master of my mind. I recognize its tricks. I see through the illusion. I take control. I persist in my assumptions, vision, desires.
I was tested, and I often failed.
Every time I choose a new vision and initiate a change by visualizing or affirming it, I feel great. But that high is always followed by a crushing low. I amp up my energy, feeling on top of the world, and then something inevitably happens that tests my resolve.
Will I stick to my vision? Can I stay true to my ideal self? Will I remember who I am? Can I persist in my vision regardless of the outside circumstances?
I envisioned making, having, and giving more money.
I felt good in this assumption. I began feeling real. I felt a change brewing underneath. I was on the right track. Then, the simulation tested my new resolve. It always does. A change this profound, elevating my life from a low to a high, is never smooth and without setbacks.
A circumstance will change that will test me - always.
Something will happen that will make me doubt myself. An unexpected expense. A car breaks down. A new bill in the mail. Increase in rent or monthly expenses. A shock of a financial nature. Whatever it is, it will make me feel like shit, setting me back weeks!
I had that test yesterday.
I was finally feeling better about money and the future of it in my life. I visualized abundance. I felt a change in my core vibration. I knew I was making progress.
Opportunities started flashing in front of my eyes, but I failed to act in time. My ideas came to fruition only without my participation. I had failed myself and left money on the table. That always hurts. That always sucks. And sometimes, it manages to derail me and set me back. Back into my old patterns of misery, hate, and desperation regarding financial affairs.
I’ve been here before.
This pattern is a constant. I’ve noticed it every time I initiated a change in my life. I envision a new future, a new me. I feel good. I know the universe, dream, simulation noticed this change in my mind and emotions. Things start moving. Slowly at first, and full of false signals. Things that appear want to confuse me. Sometimes, I fall for the trap. Sometimes, I prevail.
A test of my faith and beliefs is always inevitable.
It’s only a matter of time before something shows up in life that will make me doubt myself and my power to change this reality. To change my mind, and with it my world. It is challenging, to say the least, to persevere through this challenge.
There have been countless examples.
When I was alone and imagined having a partner, things began moving. They always do.
The universe, the simulation, the dream has no choice but to register the new programming. But it doesn’t do it without a bit of a fight. A test of my nerves. Of my resolve.
An old lover will come into play and ultimately end up in disappointment. A few dates will materialize with someone new, but it will be the wrong person. A rejection will hurt my feelings and send me spiraling. It always happens.
I imagine a new car, and the old one will begin dying on me. Always, without exception. I am then hit with expenses I can hardly cover and a newfound disdain for the car I own. This sets me back. This radiates more misery and disappointment, not happiness, contentment, and love. I have failed the test.
I imagine a new job with specific characteristics, and they will immediately begin showing up. Messages from friends and family. Adds that catch my eye. And then, upon applying, an inevitable test of my newfound resolve. Rejection after rejection.
I imagine a new home, and I’m kicked out of the current one, or a deal falls through, or some expense sets me back. There is no smooth sailing with big changes. Never was.
The more I push, the more I am set back.
The simulation doesn’t like me forcing my will on it. But it doesn’t have a choice. It can kick and scream all it wants. It is just an illusion of the mind. As I change my mind, it has no choice but to change along.
It’s just a mirror, reflecting my inside world back at me in this false reality, illusion, projection, dream, or simulation. Whatever you want to call it.
But I can’t do it myself by acting in the outside world.
My only work is on the inside. My job is to imagine a different reality. My job is to alter my beliefs. My job is to gain access to my subconscious mind and change the source code. My job is never to act in the outside world, not until I see the signs.
When a clear path is drawn up, I know it and then say “yes” to opportunities that present themselves. I wait for the right ones. Otherwise all my efforts are condemned to failure. It is always the same pattern.
The more I try fixing the problem myself, the more the universe pushes against me.
I never achieve anything of worth, any real progress by the power of my will and actions, until I let go. Until I give up. Until I surrender so completely that I don’t even care if I ever get what I wanted. Until I stop thinking about it. Until I stop trying.
Then, the tides turn in a sudden avalanche of coincidences.
They always seem to natural, so coincidental, that most people never notice their origin. The source is always mental. You’ve initiated a mental change, usually completely unavare of it, and the world changes. New doors open up. Surprising news come. Unexpected people reach out. Fresh ideas flash inside your mind.
Everything that happens makes sense, but only in retrospect.
We feel it was only logical that something happened. A leads to B leads to C. But we only see it after the fact. This simulation, dream, illusion changes in logical ways, natural and consequential ways. That is never the issue. The trick is to recognize what causes those changes. Where is the source?
When we envision a new reality, we are tested in our resolve to maintain this vision and stay true to it.
Most will fail at this point. I have failed at this point on most occasions. It takes incredible faith, determination, and understanding to persist. I would imagine receiving more money, and then my financial world would come crashing down. Almost always.
The leap was too big, most likely. I flew too close to the sun, and there was an inner conflict. A conflict of ideas and beliefs. I felt I didn’t deserve it. It feels impossible. I don’t know how I can achieve it.
The more I allow my mind to think about the how the more I begin doubting and sliding back.
The “how” is never up to me. It is not my doing. A billion things must apparently change in this reality for a new me to emerge on the other end. Often, those changes involve burning the old for the new to arise.
The process is often full of setbacks, bad news, false signals, and rejections, especially if, in our encouraged new state, we want to make it happen ourselves on our terms and our timing. The simulation doesn’t like that. It pushes against us.
Even if we achieve something by our sheer will and effort, it can backfire.
Be careful what you wish for is real! I’ve goten myself into situations, I so desperately desired, but were not the right path for me. I got what I envisioned, but I wasn’t aware of what that would mean. Often, what I believed I wanted couldn’t have been further from the truth. Yet, it manifested just the same, and I had to deal with it.
There is a real danger of forcing a change in this reality that is not to everyone’s benefit.
Once understood, our power is frightening. When you realize that you can “control” everything, even things like what other people say and do in completely unrelated situations and sickness in your body, it can be terrifying.
What does it all mean? Who am I? How is any of this possible? Who are these people who act on my inner imaginings, word for word?
Every thought and emotion leaves an echo in the world (simulation, dream, illusion).
There is no stopping this process. You can’t pick which thoughts will manifest and which won’t. All of them do, to an extent. The prevalent ones have more power, but every single thought, imagining, and emotion influence your world. Read that again! There is no such thing as idle, though!
So when we’re tested, we think back about how bad our situation is, how much we suck, what kind of idiots we are, how unloved we feel, unsuccessful, whatever it is. And what happens next? The world reflects it all back at us. We get confirmation of those beliefs.
“Yes” is the only word the universe, dream, simulation, illusion knows.
Like a mirror it reflects our minds back at us. Our inner world projected outward. It doesn’t discriminate. It doesn’t question. It doesn’t only project the good thoughts. It doesn’t give us only what we desire, and not what we fear.
Everything in our minds is reflected in our lives. All the time.
Once you see it, you can’t unsee it. I notice these changes in the smallest things. A word I use manifested literally, even though it is never said in a literal sense. An image I post on my profile then causes me to become that person.
Idle thoughts I pay no attention come to roost just the same as those I deliberately choose and work on. When I fear something, if I don’t stop it and cancel it, it will manifest itself in my life. There is no malevolence here. Only rules and a giant mirror reflecting it all back at you.
Besting the test of beliefs and the new vision.
I have envisioned, imagined, affirmed, and dreamed up something I want in my life. An improvement. A change. A desire fulfilled. An emotional state I crave. These mental images are then registered in the mind and reflected in the simulation, dream, an illusion of reality. Always. No exceptions. The dominant energy, though, belief, and emotion will have the biggest impact on reality, but all leave a trace.
When changes begin being reflected in our world, our new beliefs and vision are being tested. Nothing large happens instantly. It takes a bit of time. Sometimes a day, sometimes a year. In the meantime, can I hold on to my belief that it will happen? Can I persist in this new vision for myself? Will I ignore the signs pointing to the contrary? Will I resist the thoughts of doubt and all the setbacks?
It is no easy thing to persist in the new vision.
If you wanted something so badly, that you spent time imagining a different future, affirming it, writing about it, demanding it from the universe, that usually means that you are severely lacking in this department.
These are the things we’re talking about. The rest comes naturally to us, without much resistance on our part, no conflicting desires, and, therefore, no doubts. That is easy. Making profound changes is not.
Going from lack to abundance, from lonely to loved, from misery to happiness, from unemployed to happily employed, from homeless to homeowner… These are no small changes.
Yet the only thing standing between us and this new desired reality is our mind. It is also the only thing that can make it happen.
None of these things move me!
I have been tested. I see you trying to trick me, universe. I’m not budging! I am the alpha and the omega, the first and the last, the beginning and the end. I am one with the all.
You are me, and I am you. My mind is your mind. Your mind is my mind. As within, so without.
None of this is real. None of this is material. None of this is separate from me. It’s all an illusion. A projection. A trick. A simulation. A game. A dream.
I am the dreamer, and I am the dream.
There is nothing to fear in my dream. Nothing is real. Nothing has any power over me. I am the one in control. My mind is the one making it all happen. No one can hurt me or help me, but me. I’m done falling for the illusion. These tricks don’t work on me anymore.
I have seen it in my mind, so it will manifest - it is done!
I don’t care what shows up in my life. I don’t care about any setbacks. I don’t care about creeping doubts. I don’t care about rejections. I don’t care about expenses. I don’t care about bad news. None of them matter one bit!
If I had seen it in my mind, and now persist in this new vision, it is done already, and no one can change it. No one but me, with contradictory visions, fears, doubts, and thoughts. I am the all.
I am the giver, the receiver, and the gift.
There is no one but the one mind. I and the one mind are one. We are all one! There is no separation. That is an illusion, a trick! I give myself everything. The good, the bad, and all in between. I don’t need to ask anyone's permission. There is no one to ask. I am one with the infinite; he/she/it is I, and I am him/her/it. My desires are desires of the universe. I deserve all the best, as I am the all, and this is all just a game. We all do. I just know it.
When I decree something as done, it is done!
I’m not budging an inch. It’s done! Done, done! There is nothing left to do, as it is already done. I have seen it; the mind has been altered, so the outside reality, this simulation, game, illusion, projection, dream has been altered.
There is no choice in the matter. There is no one to deny me. Nothing can stop it from happening. As within, so without. Always, without exceptions.
To pass the test, we must stay true to our vision and ignore distractions and setbacks.
This is why either faith or belief is so important to many. Those who believe in God will have an easier time delegating this power of change and trusting that what they prayed for is already done. Since God is almighty, who can stand in his way? Right?
Faith is nice, but it is an illusion. We are all one, and God is all; therefore, we are all this God. However you imagine him/her/it to be, you are it. If God is good and God is all, that includes you and everything in your life. There can be no exceptions to this rule.
You can’t separate good from evil and call something God and other not. That negates the basic premise of God, the ultimate power and entity that has no beginning and no end, is all, and controls all. All is all!
Understanding the illusion, simulation, dram, projection, the true nature of this so-called reality is key.
If we believe the world outside us is separate from us, filled with independent forces influencing us and our lives, then believing in our power to initiate life-altering change will be difficult. If we realize none of this is real, it’s all just a dream of the one mind, of which we are an inseparable part, then nothing really matters.
It’s just as easy to dream up loneliness as it is a loving family. It’s just as easy to dream up poverty as it is riches. It is just as easy to dream up a monster or a hero. In a dream, anything is possible. In a dream, nothing is difficult.
In a dream, we are in control, although it doesn’t feel like it. In a dream, all the characters, stories, and situations are nothing more than our minds making things up. It’s all us. The people, things, situations, and what happens to us. It is all us. There is no outside force with any power over us in our dreams.
Now, realize that this so-called reality is the same.
If it were separate and material, you wouldn’t be able to influence it one bit with your mind, but you can, and you do. All the time. Non-stop. Everything.
Test this. Record the results. Read testimonies from those who have done it deliberately. This is the only difference between you and them. You do it just as much as they/we do. You just do it unconsciously, unintentionally, without being aware of it.
If we met, and I could see in your mind, I could show you the cause and effect of your life. All cause is always mental. Never search for sources in the outside world. That is the reflection. The source projection is within. It’s you. It’s your mind. Subconscious, for the most part.
Once you see these patterns, you will understand.
Once you’ve tested it hundreds of times and seen for yourself how literally you can influence this thing you believe is some separate objective material reality, it might reveal to you the true nature of reality, or it may confuse you.
The more you deliberately manifest things, the more you will see how your thoughts influence everything. Once seen, it cannot be unseen.
When the test comes, you will now know that it is a trick.
It’s not real. It doesn’t matter. Yes, something is going on. It’s an indication of the changes you initiated. It never happens in a straight line. There are always false signals. There is always a test of your resolve. Changes come in many way, most surprising and unpredictable.
The key is to ignore them and not get emotionally involved.
None of this moves me! I don’t care about this news, setback, bill! What I have seen in my mind is already done. This is a trick. A change in progress.
It’s not the end until I live in the world I imagined. It is done! Nothing can change it now. It is done. Nothing can stop it from happening. It is done. There is nothing for me to do. I demand a sign if I am to act in some way. I will know what to do.
I say “yes” to opportunities, new people, situations, and changes.
I don’t resist change. I wanted it, so now I have to accept it. Nothing ever happens the way I want it to happen. But what I want, if I persist in this vision, will happen.
It’s already done on some level. On the level of the absolute, the mind, the oneness. Call it whatever you want, 4D, God, dream, imagination, it matters not. It is done!
Recognize the bad news as a sign that it’s working.
If something unexpected appears and looks negative in relation to my dream, I rejoice as I know that my new vision has been registered and is now being worked on.
The simulation, dream, illusion, projection has been altered, and these are the first signs of the change to come. They may be underwhelming or even discouraging, but they are good! They are the signs I’ve been waiting for.
I now understand that they mean that I’m doing something right.
I’ve reached my subconscious mind. I’ve initiated a change. It’s done. It’s coming. Bring it on! I don’t care. None of these things move me. The more changes I notice, the more tricks I am presented with, the more firm my resolve.
I have seen it in my mind. I have changed my mind. So, my reality has to change with it. It doesn’t have a choice. Kick and scream all you want. My will is now done in the perfect way for the good of all.
I am the alpha and the omega, the first and the last, the beginning and the end. I am one with the all. No one and nothing has any power over me. In this dream world, I perceive as reality, I’m the only force in control. I exercise this control subconsciously, but I have now taken deliberate control.
This world outside me is the world of effect, never the cause.
None of these things move me! It’s all an illusion of the mind. In a dream, everything looks and feels real and separate from us, but it’s all an illusion. This is no different. I see through the illusion. I see the truth. The mind is all.
It is done.
Done. Done. Nothing can change it. Nothing can stop it. None of these things move me. I understand that all these changes are good. It means my new vision has been registered in the one mind, the one that controls this so-called reality. It is done. I am at peace.
Rant over.
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The only way to control your reality is by recognizing it for what it is. A dream, an illusion, a mental projection, a simulation, a game you play. You will forever struggle with changing your beliefs, thoughts, and emotions if you cling to the illusion that this is a material reality. One where you are at the mercy of other people and forces.
See it as a dream, and realize there is no outside force that has any power over you. Realize that you are all there is - your mind determines everything. Then experiment. Once you see it, you won’t be able to unsee it. But it won’t make any sense, if you still believe that this world is independent from you, that we are separate beings.
Waking up from the simulation (dream) is a messy business. It’s not fun. It’s not easy. It’s not pleasant. If done right, it will shake you to the core and make you question everything you thought was true. Until that happens to you, you haven’t even scratched the surface. You’re still trapped in the dream, thinking it’s the real world.
Your resolve will be tested, and you will most likely fail. Unless you have immaculate faith or understanding. Can you persist in the ideal world you’ve created for yourself in your mind, completely believing that it will manifest as it has no choice? Even when evidence to the contrary inevitably shows up?